Chris Brown has already apologized for his Memorial Day meltdown involving his ex-Karrueche Tran and AR-15 strapped veteran male model Tyson Beckford.

When he did so, he blamed his social media outbursts on his light skin. However, upon further reflection, Breezy admits he's just confused, and not just on the proper way to spell that word.

He posted this emotional Instagram note today:

I'm Konfuzed, I always thought I knew the concept of love. Fame and Money can get in the way of that. Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes. I can't speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling. There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see. I talk to God a lot now. He's given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it becuz of the choices I've made or mistakes. I tend to accept the negative or the riff raff becuz I know what it's like to be a young black "nigga" in America. I always see the good in people even when they don't see it. I love others more than myself at times. Everything u see on the surface does not reflect what's inside. This is my white flag. I surrender to life and all its blessings. I refuse to be petty and attention seeking. To know me is to love me. Good Bad UGLY! Sincerely, Konfuzed

A photo posted by @chrisbrownofficial on May 28, 2015 at 10:45am PDT